=)

hais.

2010-09-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

today, we didn't text much too. what can i say? i wanted to text you so badly bt idk what can we talk abt. probably this is what others say, ran out of topics? i remember saying that we would figure is out somehow when the time comes, bt it seems much more difficult. i keep asking my friend, eh what can we talk about? and he said, i thought you normally got alot of things to talk one? why now nth to say uh? . OKAY, i guess i hid a part of me when we became friends. bt i really want us to return to the past us, where we used to chat for long hours. i enjoyed having your company girl, i really do. bt now, somehow i m lost. can i really keep my stance as a friend? i want to stand by your side and watch you, care for you and do whatever i can for you bt idk what stopping me from doing it. can i take a step closer to you and yet still stay as friend? tsk this is a problematic question. i was hoping to strike a conversation with you, bt seems like its not working. didn't i tell you that i would disappear (no talking no texting) once in a while when we are friends? i did didn't i? thats just me. :( a bad habit, espically when i don't feeling like telling my friends anything. not that i m not contacting them, just want to be with myself for a little while. :( i miss you girl. your stupid boy is still waiting. i guess i m just being stubborn. oh well. i think this is just me, the saddness in me.

alright, abt today, i met up with some of my secondary sch friends. it been like 3 years since we met up, basically cos they did not go for the class reunion. we crap alot. just like the good old school days. i realised that they didn't change bt yeow and i changed alot. probably the people we mix ard with and circumstances made us such change in such a way? bt then, all the childishness came back with them, the feeling of "freedom", i shall describe it this way cos we are basically relaxed and its really great to see these familiar faces.we eat, watch movie, eat and eat. LOL, FAT LO. i guess next week NAPFA i cmi alrdy la..HAHAHA. Additional 2 mth jiu 2 mths lo. CHEY! i also bo bian right, cos my muscles comaplain its tired. prcp coming right! ah ya! tired dao....no time to train! AH HA!

2010-09-11T11:59:00.002+08:00

ai ni. li kai ni

枫呢喃的轻拂窗口
像爱情也只是稍事停留
风很轻思念却很透明
怎奈穿越不了爱情
缓慢的妆流过伤口
晕开了我给不起的温柔
那一夜我们紧紧相拥
终于说出口已经不爱我
爱你所以离开你
眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆
为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
幸福的回音南拳妈妈
缓慢的妆流过伤口
晕开了我给不起的温柔
那一夜我们紧紧相拥
终于说出口已经不爱我
爱你所以离开你眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆
为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
你幸福的回音
爱你所以离开你眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景
剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
你幸福的回音

hais.

2010-09-11T01:19:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

today didn't really msged hui shan. like the first time i ever did that.
tsk, so hand itchy, went to msged her. i know she was outside, with a guy who liked her before, and of cos with a click and she had no interest in that guy but, i still don like it. its like jealous eh? oh dammit. i crossed the line again. i wasn't angry but was kinda sad. i wanted to tell her that, that after this week i won't be free to meet her anymore.i wanted to see her so badly, so so badly. perhaps its just me. i know she would stick to her desicion, bt still, i still bear hopes of being with her. thats how silly i am. :( i m still striving hard to get her a nice brithday present. bt she didn't want it bascially cos she knows or cn feel how tired i am. i totally understand that but do you know, its also motivation? its been long since i wanted to save so badly buying something for someone special. sorry that i m being stubborn. i know you meant well. i really do.! i wanna say "i miss you!" so much, so so much and actually its been long since we met. (we only met on the 3/9 and 4/9 of this mth.) :(

i will try not to cross the line too girl, i will try, if you cn keep it in a compartment in ur heart, then i think i could too. i think, i can. bt nevertheless, i still feel very sad. :( its terrible.! ARGH! i need to stop feeling this way. i was just wondering, if i change would i feel better? hmmm..

lastly, i can't slp since i told you lets be friends. WHAT TO DO!? fml.

3rd day insomia

2010-09-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

i guess i did it again. i made her upset again.my bad
i feigned ignorance to your feeling though i know.i am sorry.!i really am.!
i didn't know what to do. i can neither stay nor leave. crap, what am i thinking anw.-.-
wanted to message her early in the morning but idk what i should tell her...ARGH!
silly girl msged me in the end bt idk what to reply. i was looking at the phone the whole day, eat i stare, work i stare, go toliet i stare. bt i can't get the right stuff to write. tsk, she gonna get upset again. hais.!
i am no good. definately no good, i thought i m better bt in the end i was just some half assed shit. FML.

conclusion

2010-06-01T07:22:00.002+08:00

idk...i think i gotta go..
AIM:
-back to the start before bt i know i can't.
-get more booze
-graduate
-be a radish (LOL, its time to enjoy eh? meh.)

bye bye..and i appologise.

wasted

2010-05-26T21:57:00.002+08:00

wasted 1 whole day slping away...-.-
what am i doing...crap..
back to revisions and fyp...heh..-.-

i think imy..hmmm..

2010-05-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

sat and sun
-no lunch for 2 working days
-thought that dinner would be better
-just as fucked up as it was...bah...
-i gonna eat alone next time.

-end.

another birthday..

2010-02-22T11:36:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday ginna...(small girl) ! lol...=D

2010-02-19T22:10:00.001+08:00

ouh ya! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NG ZHEN LING..!=)

2010-02-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

WA KAO EH! my first paper so hard lo...like i study for nth sia...wtf..-.-
waste my time...si pharmacology paper ...ms jo set until so hard lo...
i don even know how to calculate insulin...i see le i stun...so write bullshit ans...=X well...you can't blame me...i didn't learn...=( hope i pass this moledule...ARGH!

2010-02-17T21:20:00.003+08:00

i m tired...of studying...
perhaps i shd aim for a pass? that shd b easy i guess...
seriously...its getting harder and i m getting tired...
its CNY leh.! how to study sia...wtf..
no brainers..set the study break during CNY period...dammit...!

2010-02-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

exams coming...gotta start studying before CNY...
gonna be busy...=/
i hate exams...-.-

2010-01-24T15:10:00.002+08:00

okay i just had my jab yesterday (2 on my left and 1 on my right). and it still hurts. i was told about the side effects of the vaccines, basically just low grade fever so i went to work without brothering abt it. bt i see ppl ard me taking paracetamol. -.- i was feeling tired, so i decided to get a drink from 7-eleven, i bought a blackcurrent volka (alcohol 8.4%), felt it tated abit like grape juice or sth and drank it up like plain water. well...i got abit tipsy after that.haha..at least i need not think of sth before i sleep. just like that.

Being quiet doesn't mean i doesn't know wads going on...-.-

:)

2010-01-01T14:01:00.002+08:00

first time to a bar ytd esp to celebrate a friend birthday..:)
first time going to clarke quay...
first time kena spray foams...
so mani first time....LOL...
had some difficulty finding the place as the even the securities are giving me wrong directions...-.- took me like 1 hour...? they just told me to walk straight...and i was like eh? the prv security guard told me to walk straight down and now you are telling me to walk straight up again? =O
i wonder if i would go there again..hmmm...it was so hot and ppl were pushing...(i hated being pushed) overcrowded i guess probably cos its new year eve? haha...anw...i managed to find my way there...after wondering around here and there....phew! at least i made it in time..=D

Idk whether cos its the eve or what, attachment in the hospital is super busy...! i was like running ard the ward for the whole day? and when i cn rest a bit i had to go down and buy food for pt...cos nurse forget to order so ask me buy porridge...-.- go down le then no more porridge...=O go back up again then tell nurse, she say go buy chicken rice then, with the soup...so i went back down and told the bought the order...this time kena scolded by the hawker vendor...cos i asked for the soup (my pt doesn't have much teeth you see) ....-.- buy from you, you still scold me...not i eat one eh!!=( so by the time i rushed back up, its time for turning and changing...-.- and i had to do it alone, for my EN was bz with sth and my friends r kinda busy, fortunately my pt cn help abit...:) bt v v tired le..

haha...as the matter of fact, i was really tired...so so tired...esp after first drink...forget its abit strong, and with me dehydrating, i drank a few mouthful when the drink came...which made me more tired...HAHA...cn ta han de...! mentally >=) bt physically tired... nvm...TA HAN...! i told myself...=) its jeannette's birthday and so mani ppl ard...and with new year coming i will stay awake!!!! haha...i get to see wad i wanted to see...=D (i guess only she knows)

saw my buddies and had to drink with them again...=O okay...i am not walking straight after that seriously, gonna b drunk i know...cos i m starting to feel the hotness...though its after being sprayed foam by strangers while go to them...-.- crazy de...ppl walk pass they spray....so when me and my frien walked out, we were like snowmans just that we had white patch all over and not totally white...-.- it was fun seeing them there...=) my sec sch friends, so long nvr see them le...

so ya...i reached home ard 3 plus? quite late uh...haha...jeannette was right...xD the mrt was crowded with ppl lor..! =O ouh ya..when i got home the best part is here...my bag which had chocolate(given by CI) inside melted and it dirted my whole bag...nice new year....first thing i had to do when i reach home is to wash my bag...didn't know it until i searched for my keys and felt the melted chocolate on my keys and stuff...-.- the feeling was thick and oily...argh! and went to slp at 4 plus...haha...=D

thank you so much for such a memorable new year...=)
next yr again ah?
haha...^^

angry!!

2009-12-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

wah fuck ah....y all give me...!!!>=(
gt printer means must print for everyone isit? even ppl whom idk?
you think what? i too nice and friendly so just pass me pda and zao?
eh...you also got printer okay...y pass to me? WTF ?
dammit man...i don't like being pushed ard...
my patient really passed away...and i did last office for him in the morning...
at least i managed to do sth...=)
a great start for the day....heh....

2009-12-20T02:44:00.003+08:00

i completed the my WORK!!!!!!
YARHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
1 day free day is for my grandmother...=)
haven seen her for mths...i wonder...hmmm....

=)

2009-12-18T00:24:00.002+08:00

day 14 tml...
15 days of work will soon b over and perhaps i might see the fruits of my work...haha...
its not done till then...=)

2009-12-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

saw some familiar faces today!!
dr thomas n his future wife and my sec sch frien...
LOL...xD
off to slp...=)

2009-12-14T11:06:00.002+08:00

5 more working days to go...=)
and i would go back to my studies and stuffs during the attachment period...-.-
hmmm..
fast food is not making me any heavier...still as skinny after 2 weeks of eating it continuously...lol...gonna continue eating them for quite some time i guess...=S

2009-12-11T23:40:00.002+08:00

idk what i m doing...-.-
wth...nose bled..zzz....too tired?
another crappy and tried day...
i need a rest...!

2009-12-08T12:02:00.001+08:00

i m tired to go to work...=(
stand till leg cramp at night...=/

2009-11-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

crap...sleep through the day today...didn't even study a ssingle bit...DIE
gotta keep reminding myself that its exams...STUDY STUDY STUDY!>.<
dammit...wasted...

study

2009-11-26T19:47:00.001+08:00

i m gonna study...4 days left...i gonna try doing sth...
lets hope it works...=)

2009-11-23T13:22:00.002+08:00

wah shack ah ytd...sat slept at 5 am, cos was bz doing NR...last min work..LOL
well, i was working during the day and only had time to spare in the night..-.-
i was so tired...haha..then here comes sunday. i had to wake up early to go for my cousin wedding at regent hotel.well it starts at 12 30 bt the guest are expected to reach by 12...well, it been so long since we had attended a wedding..haha.. they booked abt 50 tables..-.- expensive eh, plus the food also not that nice...=x just that they keep changing plates and bowls for us and serve the food for us also la...duh...the video was not bad showing events on sat when the groom went to fetch the bride..=)

the best part is always saved for the last. As my dad drove out of the carpark, i see several nice cars...seriously...like they all come to showcase their cars...theres 1 lambo, 3- 4 ferrari cars, 3 bently converters..! wtf..so mani rich ppl gather here...-.-
haha...and last of all, the carpark fee was $18 plus...GOD! just park car oni...so expensive...-.-

2009-11-22T00:36:00.002+08:00

crazzzy..!
ladies buying shoes are crazzzyy! total maddness i tell you!
well...its the first time i was working on ladies night. the store close at 5 and reopens at 6pm. and when it reopens, i was in for a shock man...eveyone as like rushing in and soon the cosmetics and shoes department was full of ladies!!
of cos, there was a fashion show specially for ladies...i would not go into deep details for that for i nvr get to see it...LOL...was so busy eh. haha...
i go do nr le...haven even start on it...post next time...gotta rush
oh ya! its my cousin wedding tml...dammit...so busy...=(

busy...

2009-11-18T20:33:00.002+08:00

i participarted in the red camp games station today. =) it was quite fun? i think...make some new friends here n there...and i think i ate abt 5-6 lollipops?
tried the different flavours though..=D school was boring as always...i slept on both NS 2 lesson...crap...the lesson feels kinda DRY...idk y...i just fell asleep when i cannot tahan anymore..i think there is a problem with me nowadays...i can't slp at night and due to the loss of slp, i sleep during lectures. reasonable? probably...haha...i had to get into the mood if not i m gonna suffer by next week..am kinda confident in my NSL practical tml, though a bit nervous..^^ was kinda disappointed that one oof my friends didn't go for the trip...bt nobody pei her eh(at the girls side)...ah crap..nvm...=(
and one more thing...GET WELL SOON!=D (i hope you know who u r) haha...

day off!

2009-11-14T13:43:00.001+08:00

woohoo...finally i get a day off...so long nvr had a weekend holiday...=)
not going out and i m staying at home...>=) wahahaha...xD

i m tired....=(

2009-11-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

i m super tired...=( after working fir 2 days on full shift...which is lik 12-13 hours? hais...sometimes i asked myself y m i working so hard...?-.- i m not hard up...bt i wanted to buy sth..to see the outcome of it...thats what i wanted to see i guess...=D didn't haven regular meals today during work as there is insufficient seats to eat....=( so i oni had my lunch at 4:30 pm...with my working place so busy that i even swat taking shoes in and out of the store room..imagine eh..! i m in air con! and when it come to sales..i tell you...girls or woman are crazy abt it...they just buy buy buy!wow! i climb the long ladder to take stock also nearly fell several times as they were so hard to reach..=S bt crap..i injured my leg...i wonder how am i going to train for my CCA tml..

furthermore, with so mani things left undone...i will b in deep shit man...=( tml will be the day i might get scolded by mt teammeates...haha...i haven been doing my work now...=x okay...now is time for my NR and Ns1 project...i m very sleepy...bt i m rdy to get it done asap...hopefully by today i guess...?=x

suay...=/

2009-11-05T20:45:00.004+08:00

argh...! what can i say? i love rain?
haha...i was drenched again in the rain today. and i actually used my bag just to cover my hair lo. lol..i don wanna be stared like an idiot again. =X
this was when i remembered that my lap top was inside my bag as well! crap! it was a bit wet i think, bt it was working well i guess. =S
like wad ppl say, one thing comes after another, and guess what? the rain stopped as soon as i reached the shuttle bus! it was bright and sunny! u can see the morning sun i swear! and i was like:"WAH! NO MORE RAIN AH! WTH!". cause i was still wet and esp my shoes.-.- and my frien fiq was laughing. another thing occured when i was in the shuttle bus. i was alrdy in bad mood and when i actually found a seat to sit down i acutally knocked my head at the compartment where ppl put their baggage there. -.- OKAY! so pai sey eh! and it HURT! but i can't stop but giggle that i had such a day. with my shoes wet for half of the day, the feeling was horrible...=(

2009-11-03T00:00:00.001+08:00

okay...i slpet for 45 mins during pharm lt today...was v bored i guess.
i can't help bt slping through my lectures thhough i did try to stay awake, or i did not?
ah well...idk...i think i just need to buck up....
crap....y m i always so tired...-.-

2009-11-02T00:36:00.001+08:00

pay day pay day!=)
will save it for sth...^^

2009-10-31T21:58:00.002+08:00

zzz...
was drenched from top to bottom when it rained after i m off from work...
infact, was planning to wait for the rain to stop bt after 1 hour i decided to run in the rain to the mrt station...-.-
ah well...looked like an idiot...lots of ppl staring too...wth!
the trip home was horrible as well...so cold...i think i would catch a cold either today or tml...the rain made the traffic lights in pasir ris sot too...all is green lights and jam here and there...-.-
crap day i guess...it took me 3 hours to get home...dammit...=(

2009-10-23T22:41:00.001+08:00

i m so tired...=/
cui alrdy...
haha...JY JY!=DD

2009-10-18T23:22:00.003+08:00

i think orchard road shd b call maid palace on sundays...
it is filled with maids and they are blocking the road plus pathways..esp when they walk so slow...waste my time nia...(i was rushing for work)...=X
and then i found out there are gays working in the store i was in...-.- well...one of them was easily identified by "his" voice...though he had long rebonded hair...i heard he is taking hormone pills...(i don talk there u see)
while the other one was quite normal...though he put on make up..i tot he was a guy bt he said he had a boyfirend...o-okay...win liao...i nth to say...-.-
i didn't know much up till now...-.- this proved how much i didn't know abt my work place...work there for nearly 2 yrs liao...haha...anw y shd i care...not my prob anw...=DD
sch reopens tml!!!!bye bye!

2009-10-15T11:44:00.002+08:00

chiong part time in the last wk of holidays...haha...
back to my old job...ah well...hope i would get to spend my $$ soon...=D
haha...XD
i just hope time pass faster...=)

2009-10-02T13:44:00.001+08:00

no mood...
my family found out sth foolish...-.-
fk it..!
end here...

2009-09-27T11:36:00.002+08:00

ytd went to prescilla's bbq...
haha...got lost while finding the block...ah well...=S
it was fun except that theres is not enough charcoal..=X lol...
lot of peeps are invited...bt i only know one...haha...
and i helped to clean up at the end...=D

and yah..! HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRES! (charcoal is good for ur hands hor!) =)

2009-09-25T23:31:00.004+08:00

woohoo!
last day at imh....
we bought cakes and tibits for the patients...
and one of my friens even broke down while trying to terminate the nurse patient r/s...haha
we slacked the whole day...staying in the tearoom only...xD taking photos and play big 2...
fortunally we r not required to do any case study...ty so much man CI!
and of course we made a card for our CI...for his efforts and stuff...and he cried..(we cn see tears from his eyes! he was moved by us! =D)

the final moments of the ward was really really nice...we gave out the remaining sweets to the patients...which they asked for them with their mouths wide open...=) i took some and give to patients whom i spend time with most...and while giving, a uncle shaked hands with me and kissed my hands...LOL...there is this feeling...unexplainable...(i not gay hor!) the feeling of someone showing their gratitude...somehow i was touched...cos i didn't expect that....haha...xD

and before we left...almost all of the patients waved and said goodbye...the feeling was really good...the feeling which reflects that you are needed...your existence really make their day...haha...and we got their blessings...even after all those days of seeing people eating shit and drinking urine...haha...

last of all...thank you uncles..! thanks for all the fun...i really enjoyed it alot...! the time where i cn b crazy....haha...XD

i m waiting for something to come...she is denying it...and i n gonna watch what is gonna happen...>=(

IMH

2009-09-18T23:36:00.002+08:00

IMH posting...
WOW!!!
first day,..:
whole day orientation...not much fun...other then the part when we entered the ward...a patient chased my ca mates around(girls u see)...and u see them all running round and round with the pt chasing them...XD
haha...the patients looked friendly btw...=)

second and third day was normal...still getting used to it...the oni incident was that we tio caught for playing card game at the patient playing...lol...my staff nurse even call us to go to the tearoom and play...haha...anw...slack for 2 and a half hours straight...=P

fourth and fifth day:
this is where everything sparks...!=D
morning shift peeps told us that they say something...which is beyond our thinking...they witnessed a patient eatting shit...(well...normally people would just say it as a casual remark...bt the fact that it is the truth!!)=O...i did believe it at first...until i found out one of the shit eaters today...-.- i helped to bathe him somemore and it was like..." HEAVENLY" when he open his mouth? -.-" fortunately i did not eat any breadfast...=X

next was a patient drinking urine? eh? okay..first of all...there is food and water there...so don b mistaken that imh is ill treating their patients...bt seriously...urine drinking is not common in singapore...and people don drink from urinals...=) i haven found out who was the urine drinker yet...bt soon i will...;)

next was a patient who keep repeating the same sentence or phrase over and over again...and he would come to you and say it every 30 mins? haha...there once he said about inserting and needle for injection i think.(he speak in a certain dialect) i m really afraid that one day i might just poke him...-.- tolerance tolerance...! btw...he was also the one who eat shit....zzz...plus he had a nasty habit...he had a protruding anus so his rectum would pop out every now and then..(haven seen it yet) its best if he does nothing about it...bt something is usually done...-.- he would use his hand and push it back...usually till the extent that there is blood... okay...there is real deal...he was a regular mahjong player...and sometimes...with his blood stained hands he continues playing the mahjong and the other uncle is like no feeling? (they continue playing) plus..i had been playing mahjong since monday? and i didn't know about it... plus i normally play before i go for my lunch...D= god knows wad i had eaten...-.-

we had a patient picking up food from the floor and eat...another one slpping like a log all day long, one that kneels on the floor and looks like he is praying bt in fact is kissing the floor...(he is enjoying it i tell you!) , one who had a bag full of barang barang that belonged to the ward...patients who enjoys laughing at them selves...basically...u name it...i think i have them all...-.-

i oni pity them for the fact that there are no visitors who came for them at all...and the part where one of the uncles actully looked out from the grilled window was really...sad. =/ is like no freedom here...plus our ward had this gloomy look...no wonder it was so depressing...-.-

nearly got punched by a patient...managed to dodge it...phew...!=D

2009-09-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

woohoo!
it been a while since i buy things...haha...
went out with one of my buddy to city hall to find a frien...in the end we ended up buying things...
well...i wanted a pair of shoe...xD
after all the spending the aftermath is like...god...i m gonna get broke...argh...sian...=/
=)
at least i m not so bored for the day...phew!

2009-09-13T03:12:00.004+08:00

ah well...it been so long since i last blogged..
haha...well..i had attachment in CDC...=S
travelling there took up much of my time and energy u see..=X
how should i say about that place...hmmm..
boring? and perhaps abit of fear?
haha...its natural for us to feel that i think...i mean...don ppl go there when they had infectious diseases...? and wad are the chances of cross contamination? u never know...
well...the patients there are unsually quiet i should say...probably cos they are in single beds...
and of course, there are exceptional cases...such as a HIV positive patient was pretty delighted to talk to us (student nurses)...i think which is the onlt one patient who is willing to share...though not how he got it...but his words of encouragement...=) (thanks alot!)

apart from that...there are other patients whom i found them quite interesting...lets say some of them are pretty much alike to us now...as in the way they talk...haha...for every 2 to 3 sentences there is "na bei! cb and stuffs!" i mean...its funny in a way that u don see people older then you saying these words in public...haha..=)

i recalled on of the days when i was trying to transfer a female patient to take her weight at the weighing chair. well, i guess it took 4 people to transfer her to the chair (including my CI)..haha...the best part was that she was MRSA positive and we were only wearing glpoves and apron...and of cos, during the process of transfering, we stained our clothes with her blood...we can't really blame her i think...she had v bad skin erosions that she herself fear about...bt guess what? the weighing chair malfunctioned after we transfered her onto the chair...-.- haha...waste of effort...fortunatelly we were talking in english (a language our patient does not understand) *60 plus le mah! how to know english!!* bt we said...erm...we haven take ur weight, bt we will take later!..poor lady, she was compliaining for the bleeding on her legs...bt what cn we do? its a doctor order...-.- (brainless, i think...even my CI and also angry) hah...after which my CI decided to change patient shirt (she was complaining of it being stained)...we helped too...bt of cos it was covered la...=) (i don even wanna see eh -.-) ...after changing, we noticed that the heel protectors were stain, we planned to washed it bt our CI corrected us by saying it must be thrown away as it was stained with MRSA blood...-.- okay ur the CI u win...=/ the patient was furious bt wad cn we do? we r just students and our grades depend on her...next, she had to insert the rectal supportsitory for the patient...and heres the joke! first try: she put into the first hole (girl should know ah!) the patient was complaining that she was placing the bullet in the wrong hole also eh! see! even patient also know! then when it was in then my ci realised...-.- and i was there like "auntie relax! my ci know what she is doing...just relax!" haha...XD the second one LOOKS successful though...however after another two AN took over, and i was the only one left inside (last one to leave la) they show me something that make me burst out in laughter...xD the bullet was out la...! best of all is what, the AN say is i put de lo...! BEST AH! lol...i say it was my CI they laughed even louder!! haha...XD as a matter of fact, i joined in too...=X

i guess this was the oni fun part of my attachment...so who says ur CIs are competent nurses? i think they need to get their P&Cs signed too...=P haha...another incident was a paitent having SOB(shortness of breath)...=S he was shivering and breathless, and the doctor was panicking...well O2 saturation was going down, and we fear the patient would collaspe...=/ first time encounter with this kind of scenerio, i was kinda stunned...=O (everyone have a time like this okay!) =/ bt i followed the doctor's instructions ans ran to get the stuff...poushing O2 tank (big one )and getting the necassary items bt wad i get in the end? the doc say the student nurses were slow!!!when she didn't even take the stuffs! i was like...i didn't know where they were placed rite! and u know where they were, y don u get them n i help u monitor the patient...-.- everything the student take and push...and u scold us for being slow...=/ and guess wad! all 6 std nurses r inside...BOMB BOMB! best thing is when the doc asked shafiq take ventri mack...he go take parameters for the row of patients...BEST MAN HIM...!don even know what is emergency...!!!i feel like going there punch him alrdy la! F up guy..! =@

i think these 2 incidents are the most i cn remb in the attchment...=)
of cos we visited a shelter at the last day of attachment...mainly aids patients...i m amazed by their friendliness...it was like...they were supposed to be restless and emotionless..we were educated by them in 2 activities...making sugi cookies and making flowers...imagine...boys making flowers...-.- i failed miserably in making the flowers...i make them like swiss rolls...haha...XD at the end of the session we were asked to make a poster....and we created a poem for them...:
roses r red
violets are blow
we have a bunch of flowers
just to give to you...
*after which we sined our name*
tell you what...the paper A 3 size...the poem took up 1/4 of the page and our names took up 3/4 of the pagee...LOL...hahaXD and looks like ours is the most budget one lor...=D
ate the sussage curry prepared for us....the malays can't eat...so the chinese had to eat them up...awww man...so full la...!!!then still had to take seconds...-.- no choice one...we had the cookies for dessert...another theng that u eat till wanna stop one...=/ well...we lefty 3 for our muslim friends...just in time : 7 pm...HAHA! seriously...!we laughed alot in the shelter..all the boys turned crazy...=)

i had written quite alot...haha...enjoy!
BYE!

2009-08-29T22:58:00.003+08:00

haha..so long nvr post anything...
=D
i think i flunk 2 papers..-.-
not much of hardwork i guess...
mind was kinda blank when topics which i did not studied came out...-.-
nonsense right?
haha...=)

2009-08-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

BORED...
o man...studying sucked...=/
okay...thats it..
back to mugging...-.-

2009-08-19T14:12:00.001+08:00

ARGH!!!
BZ AND BORED W EXAMS!!!
END HERE!=/

2009-08-16T23:07:00.003+08:00

today i went to the market...just to buy some simple stuffs...
hmm...i think...i wonder how any years since i last went to the market...
erm...6 years? =S everything changed...the vendors the place...
hmmm...
exams coming and i m still gaming...no mood at all...seriously...
i think i need something...bt i not sure wad it is...lol...
i hope the mood comes soon...=/
ARGH! books just makes me sleep...zzzzz....

2009-08-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

ytd HS day...well...not much of an excitiment...-.-
anw, i arrived late and the show was halfway through at first.
and secondly, they didn't go...-.-
lol...haha...well..."get well soon!"...=)
and another..."get more rest!"

today wasn't much...was gaming though had exams tml...
wtf...no mood...and i m too tired for anything...jia liat...
hmmm..."i still remb last wed when i saw her by coincidence...and we were both LATE" . =D

2009-08-11T22:05:00.002+08:00

lol.i actually slept through NS4 lecture...i guess i couldn't last that long...=X
haha...was planning to study after sch today bt ended up watching videos.=/
erm...i guess i cn start tml eh? or is it not? haha...
exams in 1 week...so which one shd i start?
hmmmm....

2009-08-04T20:43:00.003+08:00

ah well...how shd i start...today nothing much la uh...=)
as usual...boring and busy...
ytd had my NSL practical...though i was prepared...however, when it was my turn to present, i just couldn't get it right. i was suddenly nervous and anxious till the point that i forgotten to introduce myself to the patient. minus marks for that...-.-

next, was that the tester was actually my previous clinical faciliator lor...=O
and she specialise in COPD (well...she is a COPD nurse preiously). i was like "jia liat liao...don do well and i m dead" haha...well, it went well other than that.the remaining time of the day was project project project. =( when cn they ever end...-.-

lastly was home issues...i hate to say but if u don trust us and didn't want a place i say its home. then pls leave...nodoby is gonna stop u...and if u believe others would fight for u without a motive when ur family cn help u...then...please go. i don want a sister like you. its been 18 yrs man and u didn't change...u make me quarallel with dad...so now can i think i cn ask others..."what is considered a normal family?" u really make me puzzled.=/

2009-08-02T19:43:00.002+08:00

haha...ytd too late come home ler thats y nvr blog...lol
i m back to work again ytd cos i m broke. aargh...! so bored lo! >.<
bt no choice la...for the pay...-.-
o ya! ytd night when my dad bought me go eat supper, i ate the pig organ soup and guess wad? inside got cockraoch lo...-.- sian...to think i almost eat finish ler then notice it leh...thanks eh uncle! gib me "extra" ingredients. after that like no mood eat liao. not sure to laugh at myself for not noticing it earlier or worry whether i gt stomache later on...=S

okay...back to today...i went for the osim triathlon. well...i was so sleepy that i keep falling asleep.=X haha...i took a cab with my frien there bt there was road block to the carpark everywhere!!wth...okay...the best thing of the day is this "there was an athlete who died". And we did not know abt it till a straits times reporter came and ask us about the incident. we were like "wow? gt ppl die meh" we were only told that there was someone with a cardiac arrest bt not someboey die leh" haha...basically cos my friends and i were slping most of the time...=X it's so windy and humid ma...=) only till the end then we knew that there really was an incident and someone died. well...RIP to whoever you are. bt u r really great to complete the race. the same goes to everyone who participated...=D well...i drank lots and lots of 100 plus till i m sick of it.=.= one more thing...the paramedics are useless...LOL...they keep calling the medic to do stuff and even cramps when we do not have the proper equipment and they had it...-.- wth la...

at least dinner was better...=D i ate 5 BBQ chicken wings and 10 sticks of satay plus bandung drink with my 2 other friends. ^^

2009-07-31T22:49:00.002+08:00

haha...it was boring at the beginning bt end at the end of the day.
today i had NS4 video shot. well...it might not be well done bt i believed its the best we ever had. Afterall, its the fun that counts...=D
haha...even our camera man were laughing. woohoo...i can assure you that during the presentation, there would be an uproar of laughter...^^
haha...

2009-07-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

haha...well...life guard was really boring. haha... expected.
now i m stressed up with projects espically when they are going to be due soon and i don have much time...-.- argh! i need more time to study also...=S
hais...

tired...

2009-07-28T22:58:00.003+08:00

sch ended at 11 pm today...woohoo!
bt i had to stay in sch for projects. O man....=(
i was alrdy super tired after trying to stay awake at the 2 boring lectures...
well...what cn i do? all of my projects r due next week. i guess i gotta slog hard for now and reap the rewards later...=)
bye!
tml is going to be my first time on life guard duty...lol...well i know its gonna be boring...-.-

phew...

2009-07-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

ah well...at least she came back...=)
parent questioned her out of concern...
well...a guy whom cliams to be her secondary sch frien sent her to our hourse doorstep...believe it or not...we still ahd to accept it...at least she was home safely...=)
haha...was very tired today...went to training and it was dexter's birthday...well...belated...haha...at least we celebrated it at the poolside and mac...lol...=D at the poolside they pour a liquid (flour +milk+sugar+salt+butter) on him and threw cakes at him...making him look "dirty"...we had supper at KAP afterthat...and they were playing with the seaweed seasoning (the one when u buy the double filet o fish)... throw it here and there...well...it made the place smell of the seasoning...-.- fortunately was not affected by it...haha...=)
hmmm...off to do my projects...! bye!

='(

2009-07-25T18:18:00.000+08:00

my sis didn't went home for 2 days....parents were so so worried...
i just saw her though...at whitesands...i called home to know that she still didn't return home...so i stalked her...she wanted to go to the toliet...so i followed...along the way she glared and screamed at me...i don feel shame at all cos she was my sis...i waited till she came out from the toliet...and we took the bus home tgt...initially, i thought she was goign home...however i was wrong...halfway through the journey, she alighted the bus...which was unexpected...we walked a few meter and i feel something amiss...so i called my dad...to my surprise, she really did something unexpected....she tried to run away by hailing a taxi...i didn't want to lose her...so i dragged her before she could even board the taxi....the uncle was kinda shocked when i grabbed my sister...i told him she wanted to run away as u see...and he asked me to shut the door...i did so with my sister struggling...i managed to hold her down...bt not for long...i hoped my dad would arrive soon enough...it was embarassing to create a scene outside...however, if i let her go i fear i might not see her again...=/ fortunately, my dad arrived in time...as my sis saw his car, she bit, scratched and pinched me...it hurt bt i never loosen my grip onto her...cos i feel that since i saw her it was my responsibility to bring her back...my dad came out from his car and tried to get her home, but she would not budge...she just said she don wanna go home...i knew it would be a huge blow to my dad...we had been protecting her u see bt seemed like it got worse...well...as u cn see, we created a secene there...ppl are watching, bus drivers, passengers, by-standers etc...they were watching the "show" ,typical people and i don't blame them...we persuaded her for 1 hour, bt to no avail...she wouldn't change her mind of going home..."i don wanna go home!" she shouted the second time...my dad was utterly upset...i threatened to drag her home should my dad allow...bt he refused...i was disheartened...suddenly my dad asked me to return to the car....he gave up on her...she was outrageous by staying outside for some unknown reason (simply for a guy)....i don know why she is so unsensible...we returned to the car...and along the way i was tearing...i don get it...she was my sister...i couldn't just give up...i asked my dad again to reconsider...he seemed persistant...i was crying...its been so long since i last cried...and i was the only one crying...my dad....though said that he wouldn't brother about her anymore did drive one round to see if she was still at the bus stop...she still there...so dad went to buy a new lock...to change the house lock...it was when we saw her crossing the road...i guess she was returning home...and she realli did...as my dad parked his car, we went down to look for her...she noticed us and ran away...probably hailing a cab...i cried again...failing to get her back...i felt as if it was my responsibility...i should have dragged her back...cos if i let her go....i might not see her again...=(

=)

2009-07-24T18:18:00.000+08:00

woohoo...!
sch ended early today....i guess its gonna be boring...=S
time to do more work...week 15 coming and presentation on week 16...
chiong ah!!=D